When You Made It Out Ok but I Didn’t

I’ll think about

your green eyes

inside of stairwells,

the small spaces off to the side

where I imagined

holding you once.

Or,

inside of an elevator.

The yellow light

reflecting off of our skin,

making it look warm,

making it light up

and glow

like

all of the synapses,

valleys,

gulfs,

and trenches

of my brain:

a landscape filled

with land mines,

places

you cannot face.

Places

you

would

not

make it out of

alive.

I’ll think about your

uneven eyebrow

under streetlights,

in empty parking lots.

Holding your hand

for a split-second

to avoid getting lost

inside of my own mind.

Or,

inside of a crowded market.

How you close your eyes

slightly when you’re feeling

shy.

My entire body

sweating

for the rest

of the night.

A landscape filled

with land mines,

places without excavation.

Places you would

not

survive.