The Existentialist Consumer

I’m feeling lonely so I’m buying Carl Sagan books.

I need someone to tell me that it is okay

to be small.

Not only that it is okay but that it is

inevitable.

Not a question but a fact,

not a problem that has any sort of solution.

Not a problem but a

tiny

blue

dot:

the universe with its bruised edges,

its corners bent and folded.

Something so big that it cannot be contained

without getting hurt

by what is trying to contain it.

Something so big that when you stand up against it,

you can’t help but to feel small.

I’m buying Carl Sagan books to get lost

inside of vast and open spaces,

to stop feeling like the microcosm

is the macrocosm−

to forget about the difference at all.

So maybe there is no loneliness because it is all just nothingness.

Maybe being small is impossible because smallness is meaningless.

Maybe I should be buying Nietzsche instead.